📖 The Last Identity Crisis — now open for beta readers

A new book on why you’ll never be your true self—and why that’s okay

Hey friends,

After many late nights, rewritten chapters, and existential detours… I’ve finally finished a full draft of my first book:

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The Last Identity Crisis

A philosophical, poetic manifesto about why we’ll never fully know ourselves — and what might happen if we stop trying.

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BLURB:

The Last Identity Crisis is a paradoxical, poetic, and fiercely personal manifesto that dismantles the modern obsession with “finding yourself.” In an age of therapy-speak, self-diagnosis, and identity performance, this book asks: What if the self you’re trying to become doesn’t exist? What if the real crisis isn’t that we don’t know who we are—but that we keep pretending we should?

Blending existential critique, lyrical confession, and radical theology, it draws from Kierkegaard, Sartre, Simone Weil, Dostoevsky, and Kafka—but with the rhythm of sacred jazz, not a lecture hall. The Last Identity Crisis is for the seekers, the skeptics, and the 3AM spirallers who’ve stared into the mirror too long.

It offers no answers. Only this: a trembling invitation to lose the performance, grieve the mirror, and step into the wild possibility that begins where the self ends.

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The Last Identity Crisis is strange, layered, and a little undefinable — part manifesto, part confession, part journal, part theoretical system. If you've ever wrestled with the idea of identity/authenticity/existence, felt like a stranger to yourself, or been haunted by the sense that life is always slightly misaligned, out of tune, mortifying… you will find something here that resonates.

Before I move toward publication, I’m opening it up to a small group of beta readers. Here’s how it’ll work:

1. You’ll get one chapter every 3 days, in an email or format of your choice (about 60k words total, 6 chapters).

2. You can read, skim, or just vibe with it — whatever suits you.

3. I’d love any honest reactions: what lit something up, confused you, dragged, or left a mark. Voice notes, one-liners, full rants — all welcome.

4. No pressure. If you fall behind or ghost me halfway, that’s completely fine too.

If that sounds like something you’d be up for, hit reply on this post/email or wherever you have my contact.

I’ll be sending out the introduction + Chapter 1 this week.

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To give you a taste, here’s the rough shape of the journey:

The Last Identity Crisis is structured not as a linear argument, but as a spiral—a looping descent into the question of identity, meaning, and being. Each chapter is anchored by a symbolic marker, not just as a title, but as a mode of inquiry, a conceptual force.

These symbols—[?], [o], [/], [...], [∞], [—], and [( )]—serve as philosophical coordinates and emotional signatures.

These symbols are not just signposts. They are philosophical moods, emotional registers, and metaphysical stances. Together, they carry the reader through not a conclusion, but a lived paradox: that the self may be an illusion—and yet, we ache for it all the same.

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If all this sounds like something you’d be up for, hit reply on this post/email, or just message me wherever we’re connected.

If you’re curious, mortified, confused, split apart, alienated, questioning yourself, doubting—come spiral with me.